This afternoon I took Ryan to his 4 month rotation follow-up with Dr. Robert Ord. He was/is the lead Oral and Maxillofacial doctor and surgeon for Ryan in 2016 when he fought through two occurrences of squamous cell carcinoma. These were Ryan’s 4th and 5th cancer occurrences; secondary cancers related to the previous 3x treatments for leukemia from 1996 through 2004. I've got to admit, these appointments never get easier. The silent anxiety throughout the day can get quite exhausting (and maybe a headache thrown in for good measure.)
Over the past five years, Ryan has had quarterly follow-up appointments to keep a close eye on his oral health. Recently these appointments have been pushed to every four months. When we hear " looking good " or " all clear " after a thorough exam (as we did today!), we do a happy dance (in our minds) accompanied with a big cleansing sigh of relief. It's a rigamarole of emotions that are difficult to describe during days like this because they run the gamut of unspoken possibilities - good and not so good.
However, there is one big plus; Ryan takes it all in stride.
What we center ourselves with is that each day is a gift! We know it instinctively. Our family feels gratitude to the core every single day. Another happy dance, shall we?